Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Sad News

I am very disappointed to say that I lost my baby last night. I started bleeding some at work yesterday, so they sent me home. Slowly the blood started to turn bright red. I called the doctor and they scheduled me to come in. When I finally got in, they did an ultrasound, and thats when the sad news hit. Our baby had stopped growing at 9 weeks, (i was supposed to be 11 weeks yesterday). The reality sunk in fast and I was brought to tears instantly. They did one more ultrasound on a better machine to get a better look and they said that my body was already starting to miscarriage process, so they wanted me to do it on my own, without a D & C. We were at the doctors for 3 hours and by the time we left, i was in extreme pain as the miscarriage was really starting. They gave me pain meds to ease the pain. They said as soon as the baby had passed, the bleeind and pain should subside. The baby passed at about 9:30. My wonderful husband is the one took care of the baby when he/she passed through me. It was pretty tramatizing. I thought the bleeding would stop. It did not. It got worse, along with the pain. I was bleeding pretty bad. Soaking through a pad in 5 mintues (sorry for the graphics). So, we had to go to the ER. They took me right in and found out that there was a big piece of tissue in my cervix that was stuck, causing me to bleed and have pain. So, they had to take it out. Another set of pain. Sean was so good and holding my hand. As soon as the doctor got it out, the pain went down and the bleeding. After watching me a few hours, they sent me home.

It has been very hard and difficult. After placing Jayden, I never wanted to go through something like this, but God had other plans for me. Sean and I are sad yet hopeful. We know that we will have more children and this is just a small set back. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers as we are going through this hard time. Thanks.


The Tomlinsons said...

I just wanted you to know how much we love and respect you guys. You have been through so many hard things in your life and are so much stronger for them. This is one of those things.
I know it must be hard, and I am so sad for you. Try to smile a little, try to laugh a little, and make sure you pray alot.
Our thought and prayers are with you. We are here if you need anything. Even Leah said in her little prayer last night to bless you.

Tara and Dustin Barros said...

We are so sorry for your loss. Our prayers are with you. love, Tara

Jake & Rachel said...

I don't have any words that could possibly help you feel better at a time like this but trust that Heavenly Father has good things in store for you. I know he does :) I love you and we're praying for you.

Jenn Oldham said...

Sierra, I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO sorry!! So sorry! I just went through this and it is so awful!! I am so, so sorry. Please let me know what I can do for you. If you wanna chat, email me at oldham.jenn@gmail.com and I will give you my phone number. I feel your pain. I am so sorry girl!