Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Something is in the water!!!

And apparently I'm not drinking it, because I know at least 13 people that are pregnant right now! What?? That is insane. Normally, like 2 months ago, I probably would have cried. Not that I don't want that person to be happy but because I wanted that too. Anyone who has ever miscarried, got their period when they were "trying" or suffered with infertility understands. BUT.....i'm different now. I'm sure I'll still have the occasional melt down, but I can tell my soul is different. After messaging my good friend Rachel after my last miscarriage, she brought up the fact that I must have a very special spirit that is waiting to come to this family. And in Cancun, as I sat and pondered this, I really feel this to be true. We have a special spirit that needs to come down at a specific time.

In conference on Easter Sunday, their was a speaker (I can't remember who said it), that said, God does fulfill his promises, but in HIS time and HIS way. Man, that is a hard lesson to learn. But that's why faith is so important. And that's why I love this quote so much;

"Everywhere in nature we are taught the lessons of patience and waiting. We want things a long time before we get them, and the fact that we want them a long time makes them all the more precious when they come."

~Joseph F. Smith

I can tell you one thing. We are learning patience in the Kilpatrick household. And we know for a fact, when we are blessed with that special spirit, that special spirit will be EXTREMELY loved.


The Fergy Bunch said...

I understand your feelings all to well. After losing what would have been our 3rd baby I swear I saw more pregnant women than ever before. I remember feeling like this was some sort of cruel joke. In reality though it was simply the Lord's way of reminding me of my hearts desire, to never give up, and to be happy for others. Once I realized that I felt my heart heal and we have since been blessed with three more little ones. The Lord does have someone special waiting for you and I am so happy that you have found peace within your heart and soul and that you are healing from your losses. Your day will come, it really will. *HUGS*

The Tomlinsons said...

That is a great quote! And so true. When we don't have to "work" for something we may not value it as much when it comes to us. (Spiritual work is the hardest work of all!) Good for you for trying to learn from your trials.

Jake & Rachel said...

I really like that quote too. And I truly believe that Heavenly Father has something special in store for you! You've been an inspiration to me during my own trying times, so you're not only teaching yourself patience, but teaching others patience as well!