Wednesday, December 9, 2009

So many emotions!!

I have felt many different emotions today. Today at work, a good friend of mine told me something that was very disheartening. I have worked at Highland High School for almost 3 years. Lately, I was curious to know if there have ever been any rumors about me. (Our school is known for the rumor mill). So I asked my friend if she had ever heard any. Thinking that I already knew this rumor, she told me. It was a HORRIBLE rumor! So horrible that I won't even repeat it to you. Another friend had heard this same rumor as well. They both knew it wasn't true and they said it started when I first started working there. I try my hardest to be a Godly woman at work. This Godly woman would be apart of. My first initial reaction was:


The rumor is so far fetched, that I was shocked that someone would even think of spreading something like that. Also, if it started when I first started working, that means the person didn't even know me! SHOCKING!! My next emotion:


WHO DO THEY THINK THEY ARE!?! My friends would not tell me who said it. Which was probably for the best. I'm known for confronting people who have said things about me, or done me wrong. Best believe I would have confronted this person. But I also have a feeling they don't work at our school anymore. My next feeling:


How can anyone not be hurt by rumors? They are horrible and I have always refused to be apart of them, because I have been a victim before. My next emotion:


I feel sorry for this person. I feel sorry for their sad life. Their life that apparently revolves around bringing others down to bring themselves up. What a sad sad life. At the same time, it amuses me that they would try to say something so ridiculous, that despite being hurtful, is still pretty laughable.

So, I'm pretty much over it, but I will say the shock is still there. Please don't spread rumors. Don't name call, or back stab. Why do women do these things to each other? We are all daughters of God. Lets treat each other that way. Jealously is so ugly. Instead of jealously, why don't we look for the good. All people have it. As for me, I will never know who started this hurtful rumor at my "professional" job. All I can do is continue to try to do the right thing and make sure that if someone tells me a rumor, it stops with me.

P*S* I used the cat images because at one point in our relationship, Sean was asked what animal I reminded him of the most, and he said cats in general....tigers, cheetahs, get the picture!

1 comment:

Olia said...

I loved the way you worked though this problem with your words and images, there are always going to be some foos who would like to put on their five, what can you do? just don't let it bother your pretty head. I have way worse problems here non-human character - ants, so disgusting, close to pull my hear out and go ask for some antidepresants!